Deep Thoughts

Here are the things I spend most of my time thinking about (these aren't in any particular order):

1. How consumerism and large corporations are destroying both the planet and all living creatures.
2. That humans believe that we are inherently greater than and masters of every corner of the earth. Things like killing bugs because they're a nuisance and plowing interstates through beautiful natural environments all come from the same horrifying, entitled place.
3. I'm always insatiably hangry these days, so what da eff am I gonna eat next?
4. I should put this cool experience I'm currently having in my blog.
5. In 5 years, in 10 years, in 20 years, I'm gonna be...
6. All of the people I've known throughout my life and how relationships wax and wane. How some crawl inside my heartspace and set up permanent little hammock-type situations in there. Others look in the window, say "meh," and keep swimming around looking for other heartsystems. The people I've allowed inside and the ones I've tried to give the boot.
7. Nonviolent Communication
8. I've worked so hard on being true to myself and how I feel while also bearing out that representation in how I look. I get shit for this on occasion. Read: I'm not very feminine and this is okay.
9. The Wood Brothers have a new album out! Check it.
10. I get to create whatever kind of life I want to. Guys, this makes me so giddy sometimes that I can barely stand it.
11. Who is God? Jesus? The Holy Spirit? How should I approach the Bible? What about omniscience, omnipresence, grace, salvation, judgment, and sacrifice? Sin? Eternity? The personhood of Christ? If he hadn't been a man, would he have mattered? A calling? Is that real?
12. If I fall off this scaffolding, I will be a pretty mangled mess of human.
13. Lots of FOMO about my time in New Orleans. I wanna experience it all, y'all.
14. How comfortable and warm and happy I feel at my YAV house with all my YAVmates.
15. That I should be better at keeping up with friends/acquaintances. I suck at it.
16. My parents and siblings.
17. How much I love beer. I really love beer. All kinds of flavors and hops and colors and yeastiness and alcohol contents and ingredients from all places of everywhere. One of my roommates just brought down her homebrewing kit!
18. Dating. Lez be honest - it's on the list.
19. I should be working out right now.
20. Money. I put this one next-to-last because I care to think about it the least but I probably think about it the most. And I had to end on a good note ya know, so next-to-last it is!! How greed is a gateway to depression and constant unfulfillment but how nice it would be to have juuuust a little bit more. Being financially independent. How am I going to go back to school and also be able to live?
21. How I can exist in this world without hurting anyone or anything and how I can change something in a good way.